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I have to admit to feeling mighty comfortable right about now. I have a cup of peppermint tea, I’ve just finished cleaning up from baking peanut butter cookies, the fireplace is on, Anne Murray is singing “Nobody Loves Me Like You Do” and Anne is sleeping. And for icing on the cake, it’s snowing right now. Big, fat, fluffy flakes that stick to everything. I feel cozy and warm, restored and quieted.
Brian is out in Abby again this weekend, working on my parent’s basement (he’s building a hallway for them). So it’s just been Anne and I for the weekend. I even decided to stay home from church this morning. I just needed a weekend with nothing to do and nowhere to go. We’ve cleaned up, done laundry, baked, coloured, learned songs and generally had a delightful weekend with snuggles and books and good food. I did try to teach myself how to knit last night. I looked up every knitting video on the internet and worked away with my needles for two hours before finally setting it aside with a profound need for personal lessons. Even that couldn’t faze me. I feel very restored by time alone.
I think that part of my lack of coping skills the past couple of weeks has been directly related to my level of busy-ness and lack of quiet. I like to be home. I know that there are folks that are energized by being with people, but baby, I ain’t one of them. I need my quiet time. I need to be able to read. To feel like my house is clean and there are groceries in the fridge for suppers. I like being able to spend time with Anne but not be in such a frenzy about it. Just quietly be together, baking or choring around or singing. I like not having to talk for a while.
This afternoon, we’ll drive out to Abby through the snow to pick up Brian. Then home for a relaxing evening. Masterpiece Theatre on PBS is showing “Northanger Abbey” tonight and so I know where I’ll be this evening.
