In which I post a few links and Anne picks hip-hop

June 4, 2012

Anne had her final ballet recital on Saturday.

She did beautifully, she always does. She wants to take hip-hop next year.

I have no idea if we will homeschool again. I can’t keep doing everything, I’m tired, and something has to give, I just don’t know what because every commitment in my life matters to me. I have a lot of Very Big Thoughts swirling on that topic, but I’ll leave it alone for now.

(My friend, Wendy, took the picture above of Anne’s video bit during the recital.)

Also, I’ve been a few other places lately.

Rachel Held Evans posted my Mother Letter at her site on Saturday.

Give yourself the freedom, the grace, the wisdom, the love and gentleness that you crave from others, and then turn around and pour it out, lavishly, on the mothers around you, as a sacrifice of grace.

ChurchLeaders.com picked up another post of mine, called “Praying with Old People.

Then he said wistfully, “I think that the young people kind of need us and we need the young people, don’t you?  Because this was nice.”

You see, my advocacy for breastfeeding is coming from a humble, supportive heart instead of a know-it-all with no challenges.  I now understand just a small bit – a very small bit – of how it feels when it hurts and it’s the middle of the night and you’re just so tired and you feel so inadequate for everything.  I respect you and your story, sister. This is mine. And we are both mums that do our best and sometimes that has to be enough.

Now, it’s raining. Again.

I feel out of sorts today.

 

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  • http://www.redeemingthetable.com Kamille

    your anne is a sweet thing.  sibling three is approaching and my V will be around Anne’s age when Evelynn was born.  I was thinking homeschool for V, but we decided to put her into public school to start and see how it goes.  Plus, she’ll get lots of help with special ed services.  It’s hard–so I feel for you.

  • http://www.inamirrordimly.com Ed_Cyzewski

    Yesterday I hit a point sort of like this where I realized that I have a ton of different things to do right now, and life is only going to pick up. It was a humbling moment where I knew something had to give, but I knew that I needed to do something, and then there was that pesky thing called sleep… Praying for God’s peace as you get back into sorts!

  • http://www.divandmama.blogspot.com Jenn

    I sometimes wonder how you manage to do it all. :) I know that feeling well….I think sometimes we need those days to remind that we can’t. Thanks to you though I know have every single verse from seeds of courage stuck in my head….reminding me to lean in. To remember where my strength comes from in the first place. I totally love that she wants to do hip hop.

  • http://loveiswhatyoudo.wordpress.com/ Jessica

    I totally hear you on the making big choices thing. The major question of my life is this: how can I have my cake and eat it too? Can I do ministry and a secular job? Can I write and teach and still be a good mother for my children and partner for my husband? Now that we’re locked into adopting a special needs baby, does that mean I should stop pursuing my career or just do it with less drive (what tiny little bit of drive I have left)? If my babies and my projects are all growing, as they should, which of the inevitable choices am I going to make so that I’m not I’m a crazy person? How can you love so many things all at once?

    I know the answer to many of these questions is peace because this is a season. But dang it, what season is it? Oh, tired thirties.

  • http://www.carisadel.com/ Caris Adel

    “I have no idea if we will homeschool again. I can’t keep doing
    everything, I’m tired, and something has to give, I just don’t know what
    because every commitment in my life matters to me.”   Oh, I hear that.  I homeschool 5 kids, and it is so hard.  It’s a lot harder than I thought it would be, and it’s harder than I think people say it is.  I was really surprised by how tiring it is.  I knew it would be time consuming, but I didn’t know it would be so emotionally draining and exhausting.  There are definitely pros and cons to every type of schooling choice. Parenting and still trying to be a human and a woman is so hard!

  • Leah Colbeck

    It’s hard to feel tired and out of sorts. I hope there has been sunshine on your last few days :)

  • Stephanie

    “…something has to give, I just don’t know what because every commitment in my life matters to me.” Oh – you have no idea how much I relate to that. I think the real truth is that I just love way too many things. ;)